self-talk #2 🌛🌜

it hurts…
and i don’t understand why..
it hurts…
when you try to give all your love to just one man…
and he took you too high.. then shunt you from the lights..
it hurts…
to feel guilty in every things that you don’t understand..
it hurts..
you did it often.. effortlessly…
ask me to leave you alone
and i dont understand why.. it hurts so much
then you come.. say you were sorry… and i took it for granted…
and yes, you did it again, over and over again…… yes you did it again…
and it just hurts.. so much… and so much more…
and im start questioning….
do i just need to leave you alone? cause everytime you need time, you never come back…
and im start questioning……….
dont you know how i feel everytime you did it?
do you really want to know… or you just dont care anyway….
do you really ever think about my feelings…
it hurts… so much… it is.
for the first time… i dont want to stand by in your side….. cause it’s way … too .. hurtful.. this weary heart, couldn’t save it anymore…