evening sunlight

it's like saying both yes and a no or chasing while drowning and the moment to love is to let go would it be a waste or not, perhaps you'll never know when constant denying is the thing you ever did once you know, you should've known better that constant pain on a tray why you hold it so tightly? --- at the end of the day can I thrust my weary heart into someone's hand? if a trust is the one that waters flowers well, it shouldn't bloom.

Prelude:  When people said "If you love somebody, gotta set them free", believe in me, it's not that easy peasy lemon squeezy hhh :). It's a long long process. Definitely a rollercoaster of feelings. The thoughts of so deeply falling for someone, sometimes, kinda hurt. You want to keep them all along beside you but what actually happened was that you pulled him way too rough. And the thought of needing space makes you out of this world. All you need is to stop walking, get some rest, breathe fine, try to find yourself, take some space, and..  "You've had enough, you've been walking too far, get some rests.. sleep well.." ---- Been so long since my last post, hello again, lately, I've been quite busy, 2019 was my healing time and it's still going. Musics literally helps me a lot, besides, I also rewatch some of my favorite movies such as Ghibli's movies, Les Miserables, etc. I am trying to find myself again now. I'm very g