Prelude: When people said "If you love somebody, gotta set them free", believe in me, it's not that easy peasy lemon squeezy hhh :). It's a long long process. Definitely a rollercoaster of feelings. The thoughts of so deeply falling for someone, sometimes, kinda hurt. You want to keep them all along beside you but what actually happened was that you pulled him way too rough. And the thought of needing space makes you out of this world. All you need is to stop walking, get some rest, breathe fine, try to find yourself, take some space, and.. "You've had enough, you've been walking too far, get some rests.. sleep well.." ---- Been so long since my last post, hello again, lately, I've been quite busy, 2019 was my healing time and it's still going. Musics literally helps me a lot, besides, I also rewatch some of my favorite movies such as Ghibli's movies, Les Miserables, etc. I am trying to find myself again now. I'm very g...
it's like saying both yes and a no or chasing while drowning and the moment to love is to let go would it be a waste or not, perhaps you'll never know when constant denying is the thing you ever did once you know, you should've known better that constant pain on a tray why you hold it so tightly? --- at the end of the day can I thrust my weary heart into someone's hand? if a trust is the one that waters flowers well, it shouldn't bloom.
it hurts… and i don’t understand why.. it hurts… when you try to give all your love to just one man… and he took you too high.. then shunt you from the lights.. it hurts… to feel guilty in every things that you don’t understand.. it hurts.. you did it often.. effortlessly… ask me to leave you alone and i dont understand why.. it hurts so much then you come.. say you were sorry… and i took it for granted… and yes, you did it again, over and over again…… yes you did it again… and it just hurts.. so much… and so much more… and im start questioning…. do i just need to leave you alone? cause everytime you need time, you never come back… and im start questioning………. dont you know how i feel everytime you did it? do you really want to know… or you just dont care anyway…. do you really ever think about my feelings… it hurts… so much… it is. for the first time… i dont want to stand by in your side….. cause it’s way … too .. hurtful.. this weary heart, couldn’t save it anymore…
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